When terrible decisions aren’t realized until after you make them because in your mind you have justified the means for the end result, is it too late? Often we make decisions like this and they go unnoticed. However, there are times when they do get noticed and even the explanation sounds dumb. These decisions can have life altering effects on more than just you. i recently had the blinders taken off on just such a decision and in the process my life has been turned upside down.
The repercussions of this i will bear for a lifetime. i am sorry and sorrowful for the cause and effect that was created by it. As i have sat in the ashes of what’s left i have seen what sits above my doorway. It’s my life verse from the Bible, Micah 6:8. (NKJV)
“He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God”
The sign specifically says simply this, “act Justly, love mercy, walk humbly.” The decision that i made in every way was the opposite of this verse that i have claimed as my own. Although, in the middle of it i was able to justify the means to myself because the end result would have been positive. Without going into detail, it was not just, it lacked mercy, and it became a matter of pride, “i am right, and i will prove it, come hell or high water!” Unfortunately, it appears, this realization has come too late in the eyes of men. However, it is never too late in the scope of eternity and in the eyes of the Lord.
He has shown repeatedly, in His Word, the power of forgiveness if one is willing to confess and repent. As i have confessed and admitted the decision i made was entirely wrong and completely unjustifiable, regardless of my intention, His forgiveness has flooded my soul. i have also repented and in so doing am assured in Scripture that the One who matters most has forgiven me. His covenant remains unbroken. Although, i am suffering the worldly consequences of my decision i have hope in my eternal forgiveness in the Kingdom of God. Yet, as a human my mind spins endlessly and it is drawn to Micah 6:8.
His desire for us to act justly is something that is present in every moment and decision we will ever make from this moment forward, forever. His desire for us to love mercy, the very act of being merciful to others, forgiving one another, is present in every situation, every error, every circumstance of ones life from now until forever. And finally, His desire for us to walk humbly with Him and through life is still His desire and because He lives out these very values He is willing to act justly towards us, being merciful towards us, all while walking humbly. He is our perfect example.
Through this i am relearning to act justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with my God. After all, even though it is easy to give up on ourselves, Jesus never will!
You are loved, cj